After six long and very challenging months of sanding, crystal charging, spellcasting, oil making, and resin melting the Botanical Fat Goddess Spellbound boxes are finally done…woohoo!
As a fat positive witch, I always have a hard time finding beautiful objects of magick that featured fat bodied creatures on them. I would fervently search high and low for images of fat goddesses and witches with little to know avail. Don’t get me wrong, I have an absolute appreciation for the thin bodied goddesses I come across in art and in real life, but as a fat bodied woman, seeing images of bodies that resemble my own is a wonderful visual reminder that how I take up space is just as magickal as my slender bodied sisters. Double the happy fattie points if I could find magickal goodies covered images of fat black witches and goddesses!
I have always wanted my own ritual boxes so I figured “why not make the fat goddess covered boxes that I have always wanted?”. Visions of fat black mermaids and triple moon goddesses started dancing around in my head. “Wait a minute, I am a badass witch, I can do it!” , I said to myself and the hapless cat that was sitting nearby minding it own business. So I went out to the local craft store and bought all of the supplies that I needed to get started on….and then I froze..
I froze for about three months. I got very intimidated by what a time consuming and ritual intense project making the fat goddess boxes would truly be. I started telling myself that I was an egomaniac thinking that I had the magickal skill to undertake such a complex set of rituals invoking all five elements to do justice to what I wanted to create. I started asking myself what right did I have to think that I could do this when there are other more talented witches than myself out there. …and then I started dreaming…..
I started dreaming of my ancestors, I started dreaming of the lwa, I started dreaming of the orisha, I started dreaming of all the loving and supportive shoulders that I am standing on. Then I started slowly working
I took my time and trusted my instincts. I only worked on the spellbound boxes when I was completely confident in the step that I would take next because I learned very early on in the project that undertaking the next step/ritual out of a sense of time constraint and/or anxiety led to very big mistakes being made.
I stopped keeping track of time that it was taking me and things started flowing a lot easier. The rituals invoked began feel like second nature and before I knew it six months had passed and I was finally done with the first half of the goddess boxes (the second half will be painted).
I can’t wait to see where the muse takes me next!!